In this day and time, we all are in search of something. Knowing what that something is may not be clear, but the ache sensation inside us is real. We can feel it. My hope in writing this blog is not only to benefit me but for you as well. For me, it provides me a sort of therapy. I can get my thoughts and feelings out there, knowing that someone can understand. It’s for you because I truly believe we follow certain paths. A path that has brought you to this very site. Whether what I have to say is meant for you to read personally or for you to share with someone else that may need it. I believe that we all are connected by one commonality. We all want to be seen. We all want to heard. We all want to know we matter. Well my Friend, I see you, I hear you and you do matter.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
How are you? I hope these last few weeks are finding you in good spirits. So sorry I have been incommunicado lately. It feels as though time has been slipping by. Just by blinking, it is already October. I'm not sure about you, but I am asking myself where the hell this year has gone.
How's work going? Did you get that raise you were hoping for? If you did, good job! You deserve it! If not, don't give up. Keep fighting the good fight. You have earned it so don't let a few set backs stop you from reaching your goals.
As you know, I have set some goals for myself this year. A few I have reached, some I am still striving towards. Work is good. I have 2 new opportunities infront of me. I am hopeful that one of them will pan out and full time status will be mine!I feel like I have earned it and whatever this new opportunity brings it will be something that I can succeed at and show the powers that be that I am even more valuable to have around then they already think.
I'm still trying to get myself on track with this exercise thing. I have done great this past week, however, a combination of doing the treadmill everyday and the damp cold weather has knocked my knee out of commission. I'm not surprised, but hoping that it gets better in a day or so. When I get on the treadmill and crank up the tunes, I feel so amazing!! You know how Katy Perry's song Firework is a fav of mine...well.....that seems to be my go to song at the moment. So much so that I end up replaying it 5 times for my entire workout. Whatever gets the job done right? Hahahaha I printed out the lyrics of the song and now have it posted on my vision board. Did I tell you about that? You know the vision boards that Oprah was talking about, well I made a big one and put it above my treadmill so as I am huffin and puffin I have something to look at that reminds me why I'm doing all that sweating! So the words that I am finding most inspirational I have infront of me and proudly sing at the top of my lungs.....funny sight to see I'm aware but it feels awesome!
We can achieve what we set our minds to my friend. I know obstacles are put in our way but just as easily as they are placed, we can kick them out of the way. It may be a little more difficult, but the reward and feeling after you do is so worth it! I'm not gonna say that I enjoy the hardships but I do believe that each and every one of them has made me stronger. What do you think? I know this last year hasn't been overly nice to you either. I pray that you are staying firm in knowing that you are an amazing human being. You are intelligent and caring and have a beautiful spirit. Just knowing you and having you apart of my life fills my heart with utter happiness! I'm here for as long as you need me. Whether to give you some advice, or opinions or just give you that ear to listen and shoulder to cry on. You make this world a better place to live in.
I hope in reading this, you know that you are worth it. And yes before you say it, I know it for myself as well. We are worth it. We can achieve it and most importantly we deserve it!
Hope to hear from you soon my wonderful friend.
Yours truly,
Misty
xo
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Live from the heart of yourself
'Don't wait for someone else to complete you, Jerry Maguire was just a movie.' How great is that? And how true? How many of us who are single say aloud on numerous occasions that when I meet the right person everything will fall into place. When I meet Mr. Right then my life will be full and make sense. When the perfect woman comes along then I will settle down. How many times can we say the same thing? I'm just as guilty of it as some of you. I always tell myself that if only I had someone in my life I would be happy. Naturally we get lonely and would love to have that other person there beside us to share our lives with but the common misconception that many of us have is that that is the only way we can ever truly be happy and feel the kind of fulfilled life that we all desire. As much as I would love to share my life with someone, to have meaningful conversations with someone and to feel truly blesses and loved from that person, if I never find that, to quote Diana Ross, I will survive. I have to be enough. I am on this new journey by myself. I am taking steps to change my life for the better by myself. And I am going to succeed and overcome any obstacles in my way by myself, on my very own.
'Nobody but you is responsible for your life. You are responsible for your life. What is your life? What is all life? What is every flower, every rock, every tree? Energy. And you're responsible for the energy you create for yourself, and you're responsible for the energy you bring to others.'
I'm still learning this lesson. I think it may be one of the hardest and yet once you get it. Once you really truly get it, it could be the easiest lesson to live. Being honest here, I have shamefully put my happiness in others hands. I have based major life choices on making other people happy. And I have also brought negative energy into my life and the lives of others no doubt. I think this blog is an attempt at bringing some good energy to those who I am privileged enough have read this. I want to reach out and inspire, motivate and uplift whomever I can as I am doing to same to myself. When I motivate myself, I want to in turn do that for you. When I reach a goal, I would love to inspire someone to reach one of their goals. We can all do this. We have the power to achieve our ultimate desires. So if remaining positive, bringing positive energy around me and others gets me to my dreams, that sign me up!
'I've talked to nearly 30,000 people on this show, and all 30,000 had one thing in common - they all wanted validation...They want to know, do you hear me? Do you see me? Does what I say mean anything to you?'
When she uttered these words I can say for sure that the water works really began. She has said it before and I'm sure that the emotions running through me because of the day already but it really struck a nerve with me. We all want to be heard. We all want to know that what we are doing and saying is being taken in by someone else. Speaking as a Survivor who endured some painful childhood events, I grew up never feeling understood. Although I managed to keep my secrets from my family for years, I still felt as though I was being disregarded by them. No matter what I said or did, no one who hear me and maybe no one cared. So I grew up thinking just that. Thinking that no one really sees me so it doesn't matter how big I got, how much I ate. That I was useless and whatever the situation was, it was always my fault. Obviously I was mistaken. I do matter. I am heard. And it was not my fault. I am seen, whether I like it or not. Now I am dealing with being seen when I don't want to be seen because I am so unhappy with how I look. I yearned to be seen as a child so eating was my attempt at that. Now look where that has gotten me. that tells me that when someone is that desperate to be heard, to be seen, they would do anything.
I can't explain this new burning sensation that I feel deep down inside my soul. Yes, it's difficult to get my butt on the treadmill, to not make excuses like 'I'll just do it tomorrow.' But, I'm actually doing it. I know I should be getting on the beast (this is what I have named my treadmill) alot more and I am going to work on this. I am going to set a small goal for the next week. I would like to do the treadmill everyday. No reason why I can't, even if it's for 30 minutes. Any suggestions on other small goals to set? I am always up for comments or ideas on this. I'm learning as I go as any help would be awesome! It'd be great if we can help each other. Come on, take my hand.....
'I won't say goodbye. I'll just say, until we meet again.'
Have a good one guys and gals!
Misty
xo