You win some you lose some

I had big hopes for today. I had a job interview for an Analyst role but it just didn't go so well. This particular role ended up being way to technical and I didn't have any of the qualifications that was required. The hiring manager was great and took some time to give me some pointers and some advice on what types of things I need. There are some courses that I am looking into taking. Although it was a setback I need to stay positive. But I gotta be honest here, I did have a little melt down after the interview. I just got my hopes up.

As most people know about me I am quite emotional. Total emotional girl here! Sometimes the emotions take over before I realize it and the tears start rollin'. I just put so many expectations on myself and when it doesn't happen I feel that old monster of disappointment creep up on me again. It's almost like it's an old bad habit, hard to break free from it. I am in a good place, I feel great and really do have a bright outlook on what is to come. But for a few minutes, good ole disappointment in myself makes an appearance.

Why is that I wonder? Why does it seem to slip in there? Once I realize it's there, I kick it back out, but why or maybe how does it make its way in? My only answer to that is this. As much as living a healthy lifestyle and eating healthy and exercising is important, it's still a struggle. The physical aspect of the journey I am on is like jumping hurdles everyday. Well, the mental and emotional aspect plays a part as well. Just like I'm teaching myself to live that healthy lifestyle physically, emotionally and mentally I have to take care of myself too. It's no secret that I've dealt with some dark demons. Now comes the time where living a positive life is for both my inner and outer self. There may have been a time where I would retreat into the darkness and try to hide there for as long as I could, but that time has passed. I want to live the absolute best life I can. I don't want to hide anymore. I don't want to pretend that life is peachy. I am determined to find that happy life because I know that I truly and absolutely deserve it. I may still come across a few road bumps along the way but you know what? That's okay. I'm allowed to. I'm not following anyones rules here. I am making up my own rules as I go.

So, just because I didn't get this job today......I am choosing to look at it as 'No sweat' I am going to use this as another stepping stone to get me one step closer to where I am supposed to be.

I did use the frustration I felt to my advantage! When I came home from work I popped in one of my Biggest Loser workout DVD's and let it kick my ass. And I actually felt better after. You know, there might something to this exercising thing...LOL! Aside from getting out some tension, working out is letting me start to see changes in my body when it comes to clothes. I still can't see any changes looking into the mirror, but clothes don't lie. Not only was I able to wear a pair of dress pants today that I haven't been able to get over my ass since last year, a few ladies from my office made comments to me that the jeans I was wearing yesterday were too big for me! Really? Hahahaha Yay!!!! They said that the jeans were saggy in the bum. HA! How about that?!

Thanks for tuning in again boys and girls!! Keep smiling and stay on the positive track with me. I promise that it is worth it!! Doesn't it feel great?! Yah, I know!!

Misty
xo

Another Meatless Monday

Today, on the menu is Stuffed Peppers.....I just took them out of the oven and let me tell you...the smell is absolutely divine!
I couldn't find any recipes that appealed to me so I made this one up as I went along.


Misty's Vegetarian Stuffed Peppers


6 lg red peppers - cut in half and seeded
1 pkg Yves Veggie Ground Round
1 cup cooked brown rice
4 tbsp EVOO
1-2 garlic cloves - minced
1 cup red kidney beans - rinsed well
1 cup stewed tomato's
1 jar of your favourite pasta sauce - I used Classico Four Cheese


Heat oven to 400.
In a large pot of boiling water, add the peppers once they have been washed, cut in half and seeded. Boil for about 10-15 minutes.
Cook rice according to directions on box and set aside.
Open up can of kidney beans, empty into a strainer and rinse very well. Also open up tin of stewed tomato's and drain those as well; set aside.
In a large frying pan add the EVOO and garlic. Saute garlic for a few minutes just be sure to watch it so the garlic doesn't burn. Add the Yves 'meat' and cook for 8 minutes. Season to taste. I added salt, pepper and some parsley.
When the peppers have boiled, they should be soft to touch but not falling apart. Add a few spoons of sauce to bottom of baking dish. Assemble peppers in dish. I also added a small spoon of sauce inside peppers. In a large bowl mix together rice, kidney beans, stewed tomato's and 1.5 cups meat mixture. Incorporate everything together really well. Scoop mixture inside peppers. Top with remaining sauce and sprinkle some parm cheese on the top.
Cover with tin foil and bake for 25-30 minutes. Let stand 10 minutes and dig in!!!! ENJOY FRIENDS!!!!!!!











Until next time!
Misty
xo

Mini Goal Victory!!!

Oh Happy Day!!! I have reached my first mini goal!!! As a mini goal I set out to lose 20lbs and as of this morning I have lost 21lbs. YAY me!!!!
I feel so great and actually proud of myself. I know that I still have alot to learn when it comes to healthy eating and exercising but I am getting there. Learning something new every week, every day....I am a little on the bubbly side right now!!

If I have learned anything over these last few months that has really stuck with me is that you only get what you put in to this. If you are serious about making a change and really want to see the benefits of what you are working towards it really is a full time commitment! It's hard work and if I'm being honest, I need to work harder. So I will, if that's what it takes!

My next mini goal is to hit 50lbs. So 29 more lbs to go. I can do it! And so can any of you out there who are reading this. We have all heard people say, 'If I can do it, so can you'. Sometimes that would really frustrate me. Everyones journey is a struggle in a different way. We all have varying obstacles to overcome and what I find and easy change may not be for you and vice versa.

Short and sweet post today kids. Don't forget to tune in Monday for another Meatless Monday. Until then, take it easy!

Misty xo

"What this power is I cannot say; all I know is that it exists and it
becomes available only when a man is in that state of mind in which he knows
exactly what he wants and is fully determined not to quit until
he finds it." ~Alexander Graham Bell