The last few months have brought me so many ups and downs it has been hard to catch my breath at times. Still reeling with the sadness over losing my step dad and seeing my mom in pain has been difficult but knowing that she will survive this, get stronger every day and live her life with fulfillment and purpose makes me feel at ease in my soul. Yes times will be tough, moments will be hard to accept, memories are sad to make knowing that someone is missing, but never forgotten. Each day is proving to be a lesson and I am striving to learn what each one is trying to tell me.
Amongst the sadness and loss, there was a beam of the brightest light I have ever seen. First it was Lifeclass here in Toronto and the amazing Tea Party with OWN Canada and of course meeting some of my fantastic Canadian OWN Ambassadors. And now…..not only were we talking about going to LA in October for the O You event, but to top that already cherry topped sundae, we are now going to have lunch with Oprah herself! How many people can say that? When I say a dream come true, those words somehow don’t even begin to explain the full extent of the overwhelming excitement I feel all the way down to my orange painted toes! I am having lunch with some amazing friends and OPRAH!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! Sometimes I have to say it out loud just so I can hear it!! LOL
This LA trip will allow me to cross 2, count them 2 things, maybe more off my Bucket List. WOOHOO!!
I realized something this morning when I was on my way to the office. This place I am in right now, although I am still making changes in my life and still learning, striving to live authentically, aside from all of that, I am the best me I can be right now. Always a student of life, accepting that I really can’t do it all but I can have all my dreams if I work at it! To have been able to connect with great people, being given the opportunities for Lifeclass and now O You and lunch with Oprah….I am deserving of happiness. Really and truly. I already knew this however the meaning really reflected something different in my heart today. It’s so easy for me to get down on myself, always pointing out my flaws, what I need to change, what I do wrong. But this morning, I thought…Hmm, I’m really deserving of all of this! When it comes to others, I have no problem in feeling confident in that I love hard and forever. I take care of my loved ones, doing whatever needs to be done. I put them first, ensuring they have what they need and I love doing that! Knowing that I helped in making them happy, putting a smile on their face and making my love and presence felt is something I will forever do. What I lack is focusing that same passion onto myself. But why? I obviously have the capability, so why not love me and do whatever it takes for me? I am deserving, so incredibly deserving! We all are! We each have setbacks and flaws and things that we aren’t necessarily proud of. But that doesn’t matter at all! Good things can still happen and we have to accept it and enjoy it. Don’t waste your time asking why this is happening or thinking that something will go wrong. Just let it be. Let it be something wonderful that you can enjoy because you have earned it!
Have a great day friends!! More to come soon…I have a feeling my soul has much more to say!!!
Take care
Misty
xoxo
