Surround yourself with only people who are going to lift you higher. ~ OPRAH


In this day and time, we all are in search of something. Knowing what that something is may not be clear, but the ache sensation inside us is real. We can feel it. My hope in writing this blog is not only to benefit me but for you as well. For me, it provides me a sort of therapy. I can get my thoughts and feelings out there, knowing that someone can understand. It’s for you because I truly believe we follow certain paths. A path that has brought you to this very site. Whether what I have to say is meant for you to read personally or for you to share with someone else that may need it. I believe that we all are connected by one commonality. We all want to be seen. We all want to heard. We all want to know we matter. Well my Friend, I see you, I hear you and you do matter.


Showing posts with label LA. Show all posts
Showing posts with label LA. Show all posts

Saturday, November 3, 2012

My Oprah Moment - LA2012 Pt 2

Myself along with fellow OWN Ambassadors had the pleasure and were so blessed to be invited to have lunch with Oprah while we were in Los Angeles for the OYOU conference.  The moment plans started happening, I began my countdown.  Excitement and joy welled up inside my soul and kept building as the days counted down on my blackberry countdown clock. (Yes, I had a countdown clock on my phone and told everyone as often as I could)



So many times I found myself asking out loud, 'Is this really happening? Who does this happen to?" Well, I can now say, it happens to someone like me! Believe in your dreams and dream big!!

During the lunch break of the OYOU conference (which I will blog about in LA2012 pt3) we were asked to all meet in a designated spot wearing our green OWN Ambassador bracelets and would then be escorted upstairs to a lovely room in the LA Convention Centre.  We all were beside ourselves with Oprah bliss as we were lead to the room where IT was about to happen.  I was about to meet Oprah.

For weeks, I was worried that I would have the same reaction as I did during Lifeclass here in Toronto this past April. When Oprah walked out on that Lifeclass stage, I wept with joy as this was the first time I saw her in person.  This woman who over the years I've grown to respect. I seek out her advice and wisdom, knowing that she gets it.  So, naturally you can imagine my terror of having that same reaction this time, and in such a smaller and much more intimate setting.  For Lifeclass, I was in gigantic room with almost 8500 other people.  For this intimate lunch, I would be in a much cozier room with my fellow Ambassadors, about 35 of us in total.

Walking into this room, with the large buffet type spread on the left hand side, we saw a few tables on the right side where we were encouraged to go to first and I realized they had everyone in a seating plan. Our amazing lovely ladies Maya and Jai from Harpo had seated all of the Canadian Ambassadors at one table which was wonderful!! After finding our table and probably pinching ourselves more then necessary, we noticed that each table had one empty seat at it.  Hmmm, I wonder....

A beautiful lunch spread was put out before us, with delicious salads, tasty sandwiches and delectable desserts. And let me say right here, whoever made the heavenly mouthwatering pumpkin creme brulee...OMG, kudos my friend, well played!! That along with a few bites of some Greek salad was about all I could eat.  Gayle King and Iyanla Vanzant popped in and were so wonderful.  Chatting with us for a bit, thanking us for all of our support and love for OWN and of course Lady O herself! I could feel the anticipation building in the room.  Each time the door would open, myself along with many others would catch our breath and look with expected excitement in the hopes to get the first glimpse of Oprah walking through those doors. Eric Logan also came in to chat with each of us as well.  He is the President of OWN and what an amazing guy! So lovely to speak with and actually sat and chatted with us at the Canadian Ambassadors table.

Maya gave us a quick run down on how our time with Oprah was going to go. Oprah would come in, we would have the opportunity to get a picture taken with her by her very own photographer Geroge Burns. Then she would make her way to each table and have a sit down chat with us...hence the empty seat at each beautifully set rounded table.

This was it, it was really happening! My eyes began to well up with tears as it really started to become a reality to me.  In just moments, Oprah was going to walk through that door.  My mind raced back to her last episode of TOWS, where we can all remember her words to us.  Her love letter to each of us over the last 25 years.  In that show, amongst the countless bits of love and wisdom she bestowed upon us, she said...
"To those of you whose names I'll never know, I learned what love is."
 


Listening to those words from her, standing on that stage welling up with emotion herself in that gorgeous L'Wren Scott dress,  I thought that I would be one of those millions whose names she would never know.  I always knew that I would meet her one day but never to the magnitude that I am meeting her now.  As my reality came back down to my table, and literally moments before she walked into the room, a peace came over me.  Although emotional and with tears in my eyes, I was at peace because I knew that this was exactly how it was suppose to be.  I was meant to be here in this moment, in this time.  I was meant to be part of this group, we were all meant to be here as light carriers for this was already done.  This was already orchestrated behind the scenes and we were just now seeing the script of this chapter in our lives.

Then, as the door opened and chills raced up and down my arms, Oprah walked in. There she was! Right before me, smiling at all of us!! Instant applause erupted from the room and we all cheered for our fearless life teacher who stood before us!

What happened in the next few minutes gave me an incredible full circle moment that I will carry in my heart for the rest of my days. They had us do the pictures first, so table by table went up and got in line to await our picture moment with Oprah.  With each snap of the camera, I got closer and closer to her, anticipating what I would say or would she say anything to me? I was almost patting myself on the back because I was keeping my cool.  Oh yah, I can do this.  I can walk up to Oprah Winfrey and snap a fabulous picture with her.  Of course! Well, as my moment got closer and closer, I felt my palms getting sweaty.  Then I frantically wiped them down my pant leg....I'm pretty sure the last thing Oprah wants to feel are my sweaty hands! *SNAP* That was the camera again and it was now my turn to walk up to her. As I took my steps towards her, she looked at me and said 'Misty! Mistys OWN!' (which is my twitter name) Wait a minute...she just said my name, at least I think that's my name. Is my name Misty?  My knees began to feel a little weak and I recall praying to God right then and there. 'God, please do not let me fall at this woman's feet!' She knew my name! I'm not one of those whose name she'll never know.  She knows it! She knows me! As I reached her, I gave her a hug and then turned for our picture.  I think George snapped a few pictures and then I was on my way and the person behind me was about to have their Oprah moment.  Walking back to my seat, I remember just repeating to myself, she knew me, she knew me!

As I watched each person after me get their pictures taken with Oprah, the pure joy rising on each of their faces was truly a sight to see.  The sparkle on all of our faces really could have lit the entire LA Convention Centre, of this I have no doubt!

After the pictures were finished being snapped, Oprah said a few words to us as a group before going around to each table. She graciously thanked us for our love and support of her and OWN, for standing by her from day one as she has tried to make this amazing network something with sustenance for the soul.  She called us her light carriers.  Ok, I'm good with that!!

As she went around to each table, talking and laughing with her light carriers, we got wind that Entertainment Tonight and Nancy O'Dell were just outside and wanted to pop in.  LOL, are you kidding me?  Sure, come on in Nancy! WOW!


Although quite blurry, this is me in the upper right corner in the yellow top.  And this was a clip they showed on Entertainment Tonight! Nancy O'Dell came into the room with the ET cameras and had a quick chat with Oprah, before they were to meet after to have an interview. Quite a few Ambassadors were shot and shown on ET and we all were just tickled pink by it! But the biggest highlight of that little bonus with ET showing up?? It was that Oprah was able to tell her and show some of the faithful and loving supporters of OWN.  I was really moved by the fact that the Oprah was talking to Nancy and ET about us, the OWN Ambassadors, her light carriers!

After ET left, Oprah continued on to each table, making her way to ours.  'CANADA' she says! 'I LOVE CANADA!!' Standing beside me, with a tap on my shoulder and a squeeze, she chatted with us and laughed along.  How awesome were these moments?!?! She was so gracious and so amazing, putting each person at ease.  After her table chats, she had to leave us for her interview with ET and then for the closing of the OYOU conference.  She affectionately thanked us again and left the room.  Yes, I had to tell myself more than once, that DID just happen!


I tried to take each moment in, soaking it up as to not take even a second of it for granted.  I am truly blessed to have been present for all of this! The one person who I have dreamed of meeting my entire life, I just did! This girl from Niagara Falls Canada, who spent many years telling herself that she wasn't enough, and didn't deserve the happiness she so craved deep inside, that girl is now this woman who is writing these words, knowing that I AM enough, and I deserve more than happiness, I deserve all the joy rising up in my soul. I learned this partly because of Oprah.  She taught me that I am worthy, that I'm deserving of my own love first and foremost! Countless life lessons I have attained from Oprah and for that I am forever grateful. 

This was my first Oprah moment, but I can promise you this, it won't be my last! The awesomeness has just started and I can't wait to see what's coming next!

Thanks for tuning in everyone! Stay tuned for LA2012 Pt 3 coming to a screen near you very soon!  so much more happened at the OYOU Conference, so many other great lessons from some fantastic teachers! Can't wait to tell you all about it!

Sending love out to all,

Misty
xo

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Deserving of Happiness


The last few months have brought me so many ups and downs it has been hard to catch my breath at times.  Still reeling with the sadness over losing my step dad and seeing my mom in pain has been difficult but knowing that she will survive this, get stronger every day and live her life with fulfillment and purpose makes me feel at ease in my soul.  Yes times will be tough, moments will be hard to accept, memories are sad to make knowing that someone is missing, but never forgotten. Each day is proving to be a lesson and I am striving to learn what each one is trying to tell me.

Amongst the sadness and loss, there was a beam of the brightest light I have ever seen.  First it was Lifeclass here in Toronto and the amazing Tea Party with OWN Canada and of course meeting some of my fantastic Canadian OWN Ambassadors.  And now…..not only were we talking about going to LA in October for the O You event, but to top that already cherry topped sundae, we are now going to have lunch with Oprah herself! How many people can say that? When I say a dream come true, those words somehow don’t even begin to explain the full extent of the overwhelming excitement I feel all the way down to my orange painted toes! I am having lunch with some amazing friends and OPRAH!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! Sometimes I have to say it out loud just so I can hear it!! LOL

This LA trip will allow me to cross 2, count them 2 things, maybe more off my Bucket List.  WOOHOO!!



I realized something this morning when I was on my way to the office.  This place I am in right now, although I am still making changes in my life and still learning, striving to live authentically, aside from all of that, I am the best me I can be right now.  Always a student of life, accepting that I really can’t do it all but I can have all my dreams if I work at it! To have been able to connect with great people, being given the opportunities for Lifeclass and now O You and lunch with Oprah….I am deserving of happiness.  Really and truly.  I already knew this however the meaning really reflected something different in my heart today.  It’s so easy for me to get down on myself, always pointing out my flaws, what I need to change, what I do wrong.  But this morning, I thought…Hmm, I’m really deserving of all of this! When it comes to others, I have no problem in feeling confident in that I love hard and forever.  I take care of my loved ones, doing whatever needs to be done.  I put them first, ensuring they have what they need and I love doing that! Knowing that I helped in making them happy, putting a smile on their face and making my love and presence felt is something I will forever do.  What I lack is focusing that same passion onto myself.  But why?  I obviously have the capability, so why not love me and do whatever it takes for me?  I am deserving, so incredibly deserving!  We all are! We each have setbacks and flaws and things that we aren’t necessarily proud of.  But that doesn’t matter at all!  Good things can still happen and we have to accept it and enjoy it.  Don’t waste your time asking why this is happening or thinking that something will go wrong.  Just let it be.  Let it be something wonderful that you can enjoy because you have earned it!

Have a great day friends!!  More to come soon…I have a feeling my soul has much more to say!!!

Take care
Misty
xoxo