I'm almost at the end of another 7 day detox. It's been a strain at times but looking back over these last 6 days, I feel so good about it! It was all worth it. I'm down 6lbs this week. YAY me!! I did gain a few lbs over the last few weeks but am down those plus a few more. I am now just 4lbs away from hitting the 30lb mark. Feeling awesome about that!
My main thought of focus to give me the extra pushes this week was simple. Two words. A Baby. It's what I want more than anything else in the world. So I have one year. I am giving myself one year to be healthy and fit enough to be in a position to have a child. I'm coming up to my 34th birthday in about 3 weeks. By the time 35 rolls around I want to be ready. I am hopeful that the health issues I have experienced the last few years will have cleared up and will be moving in a positive direction instead of what is happening now. At the moment, I am not able to have children. I am infertile, dealing with what has been diagnosed as PCOD. Polycystic Ovarian Disease. The specialist I have been seeing says that it is completely reversable which gives me great hope that in the end I will be able to have my hearts desire. A child of my own. The first task at hand to get a handle on this is losing weight. Hence my main motivation. If I want a baby, I must must must lose weight. I have to take better care of myself. No way around it.
I'll continue to have my struggles, that's a given. However, struggling to eat properly and fighting with myself to get on my treadmill is nothing to the absolute pain and anguish I feel inside at not having a child. Utter physical pain. I may be ambiguous to most things outside of my own realm of understanding, but if there is one aspect of myself that I know to be truer then anything, truer then the sky is blue, it's that I would be a wonderful mother. I would be present and loving. I would be a teacher and a provider guiding through all of lifes challenges. I want this so bad.
If I am in a relationship with someone and the time came to have a child, I would welcome that with open arms. If I am single, I wouldn't think twice about it, wouldn't skip a beat while on my way to a fertility clinic. If having a child ends up being something that my body won't allow, adoption would be my other alternative. This is going to happen. I believe it. I have to! I have to make this my mantra. To say over and over to myself, something to repeat as much as I need it. Ready for it? My new mantra is Baby Mine.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iCgDgJsTR_w&feature=related
A tear jerker I know....I'm boo-hooing here too. But it's a gooder, you can't deny that!!
So my journey continues. Onward and upward. Baby Mine.
Thanks for tuning in!
Misty
xo
Showing posts with label weight loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight loss. Show all posts
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Some little tips for a healthy day
If any of you are like me, I tend to look for any kind of healthy weight loss tips that I could easily implement into my day to day routine. I fine that if I try small things I get way better results! Through some reading I did the other day, I found that many different cultures had various ways of cutting the calories and chopping the pounds. I wanted to share some with you guys. Some I think I will try and put to use myself. This info below I got from the Best Health Magazine, May 2010.
Germany - Eat breakfast. We've all heard it before. Eating breakfast in the morning gives you a great start to the day. It will give you the boost you need and that extra oomph of energy.
India - Do more yoga. Although I am not into yoga it would be something that I can see myself doing once I was at a more comfortableweight. It has been said that people who do yoga on a regular basis have a lower BMI.
Thailand - Eat spicy food. Hot peppers raise your metabolism but also, it's been documented that spicy food makes you eat slower, therefore taking your time with your meal and allowing you to know sooner when you're full. So, make sure you add a few dabs of hot sauce to your meals.....nothing wrong with that!
Hungary - Eat more pickles. The vinegar in the brin is said to have an affect of lowering your blood pressure, blood sugar levels and fat formation. Although be careful as this food can be high in sodium. I wonder if the deep fried pickles I plan to eat on my vaca next week are included in this? Um, I kinda think not. *sad face*
Poland - Eat at home more often. When you eat out it is so much easier to eat unhealthy. Not being able to see what is going into your meal and how much. Limit your eating out as much as you can. This includes bringing your meals to works. I know it can be hard to always plan enough ahead of time to bring breakfast and lunch to the office, but giving it that extra 10 minutes to prepare will save you a load of money and also a load of empty calories!
Germany - Eat breakfast. We've all heard it before. Eating breakfast in the morning gives you a great start to the day. It will give you the boost you need and that extra oomph of energy.
India - Do more yoga. Although I am not into yoga it would be something that I can see myself doing once I was at a more comfortableweight. It has been said that people who do yoga on a regular basis have a lower BMI.
Thailand - Eat spicy food. Hot peppers raise your metabolism but also, it's been documented that spicy food makes you eat slower, therefore taking your time with your meal and allowing you to know sooner when you're full. So, make sure you add a few dabs of hot sauce to your meals.....nothing wrong with that!
South Africa - Drink rooibos tea. Drinking this naturally sweet tea instead of your specialty coffee could save you thousands of calories a month.
Mexico - Eat a big lunch. If you try to get in the big meal of your day at lunch and eat a smaller dinner, you'll wake up hungry and therefore eat breakfast and so on and so forth. Having a smaller dinner cuts the calorie intake and you aren't eating alot before bedtime.
Hungary - Eat more pickles. The vinegar in the brin is said to have an affect of lowering your blood pressure, blood sugar levels and fat formation. Although be careful as this food can be high in sodium. I wonder if the deep fried pickles I plan to eat on my vaca next week are included in this? Um, I kinda think not. *sad face*
Poland - Eat at home more often. When you eat out it is so much easier to eat unhealthy. Not being able to see what is going into your meal and how much. Limit your eating out as much as you can. This includes bringing your meals to works. I know it can be hard to always plan enough ahead of time to bring breakfast and lunch to the office, but giving it that extra 10 minutes to prepare will save you a load of money and also a load of empty calories!
Norway - Spend time outdoors. Getting out and walking can do wonders. Planning a routine to get out with yourself or family and friends and go for a good hearty walk will surely do the body good!
Japan - Take a nap. We all have said it on many an occasion. 'I'm going to have a nap when I get home' Most of us never do because once you get home there is always something that takes your attention away. It has been said that sleep deprivation can be tied to weight gain. So when you get home from work, take a little shut eye time for yourself. If anyone asks, just tell them you are trying to lose weight!
Hope these little tidbits helped! Thanks for tuning in again dudes!
Misty
xo
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Mishaps happen....say that 5 times fast
I had to give my head a shake today. I obviously still am faced with quite the difficult road ahead of me and I am still learning as I go. As a matter of fact, I still have a lot to learn when it comes to living this healthy lifestyle that is no longer a desire but an absolute must.
I've struggled this last week and it's scary to know that even though it is so hard and a constant struggle every day to eat the right things and exercise the right amount, that doing the opposite comes so easy and naturally to me. I wish this was not the case but HELUR!!! It is!!!
I wanted to do some baking and bring it in to the office but when I really thought about it, I knew that all of the yumminess I would bake wouldn't make it in there. I wish I could be that person who could bake cookies and only eat one or two. Leaving the rest in a container out of sight out of mind. But instead, that container consumes my thoughts. Although I am learning portion control and I have had moments of clarity with regards to a single serving of ice cream or just a taste of something sinful, I obviously still have a lot to learn here.
But these last few days it was like a snowball effect. First, the long weekend came and I allowed myself not to work out at all. that was the start. Then it was eating something I shouldn't which lead to eating more things I shouldn't which lead to yesterday eating whatever was placed out infront of me.
This week has been filled with the the sadness of a close friend of mine and her family. They have suffered a loss. Yesterday there was a gathering at her house with lots of people and lots of food. And where was I? Standing right by the food of course.
I know that I am still on the brink of my journey but I was, probably naive in hoping that I have learned enough to not put myself into a tight spot where I feel trapped and suffocated by food.
Again, HELUR!!!!! I have an addiction. I know what it's like to feel panic over food. The overwhelming consumption of it all over when will I eat again, what will I eat and how much can I have. These last few days have shown me one thing. That this is going to be an on-going battle that I must face for the rest of my life. The silver lining here is once I can grasp the handle of how to do this and what works best for me, it will be a a little more smooth sailing. Once I am able to reach a healthy course, the maintaining of that healthy course will be something that I can do in a more relaxed state of mind knowing that I have already accomplished the steepest of hurdles. However, food is something that we need to live. We need food to survive. So, sadly for me, the thing that has become such an unhealthy addiction isn't something that I can walk away from and never look at again. I have to learn how to live my life using food as a tool of sustenance instead of using it as my drug of choice looking for that next fix.
After work today, I had to do some grocery shopping. I did well and got plenty of healthy food options, however, I did buy a package of cupcakes, without even realizing, I just picked them up. As I was on my way home, it started to sink in and it occured to me what I did and what the consequences could mean for me. I knew that I needed to snap out of this funk I let myself get into this week and pick up the pace of my journey before it totally gets away from me. So what became of those cupcakes you ask? Well, I will gladly tell you! I came home, put down my bags of groceries, took the cupcakes, walked right back out the door and headed for the back of my apartment building. What's back there? The dumpsters!! And that is where those cupcakes are right now. I then came back into my apartment, put away my groceries and changed into my work out clothes because I knew that I had to get my ass on the beast to sweat out some of the crap I've let myself eat.
So tonight, after working out and eating a light dinner, after having a cool shower, because its hot as hell in my apartment, I find myself in an almost coaching state of mind. I keep telling myself that I can do this. I just need to pick it right back up where I left it off last Thursday and this it totally possible.
The most important thing for me right now is to remain positive and ensure that that infamous demon of self doubt doesn't creep in on me tonight in my sleep. So I had a mishap, we all have. But I am picking right back up and moving forward.
We can do this everyone!! For any out there who are struggling too, please know that you are not alone. this is why I am writing this blog. Because I know I'm not alone. I know that there are so many other people that have the same hurdles as I do. We can do this together!
Misty
xo
I've struggled this last week and it's scary to know that even though it is so hard and a constant struggle every day to eat the right things and exercise the right amount, that doing the opposite comes so easy and naturally to me. I wish this was not the case but HELUR!!! It is!!!
I wanted to do some baking and bring it in to the office but when I really thought about it, I knew that all of the yumminess I would bake wouldn't make it in there. I wish I could be that person who could bake cookies and only eat one or two. Leaving the rest in a container out of sight out of mind. But instead, that container consumes my thoughts. Although I am learning portion control and I have had moments of clarity with regards to a single serving of ice cream or just a taste of something sinful, I obviously still have a lot to learn here.
But these last few days it was like a snowball effect. First, the long weekend came and I allowed myself not to work out at all. that was the start. Then it was eating something I shouldn't which lead to eating more things I shouldn't which lead to yesterday eating whatever was placed out infront of me.
This week has been filled with the the sadness of a close friend of mine and her family. They have suffered a loss. Yesterday there was a gathering at her house with lots of people and lots of food. And where was I? Standing right by the food of course.
I know that I am still on the brink of my journey but I was, probably naive in hoping that I have learned enough to not put myself into a tight spot where I feel trapped and suffocated by food.
Again, HELUR!!!!! I have an addiction. I know what it's like to feel panic over food. The overwhelming consumption of it all over when will I eat again, what will I eat and how much can I have. These last few days have shown me one thing. That this is going to be an on-going battle that I must face for the rest of my life. The silver lining here is once I can grasp the handle of how to do this and what works best for me, it will be a a little more smooth sailing. Once I am able to reach a healthy course, the maintaining of that healthy course will be something that I can do in a more relaxed state of mind knowing that I have already accomplished the steepest of hurdles. However, food is something that we need to live. We need food to survive. So, sadly for me, the thing that has become such an unhealthy addiction isn't something that I can walk away from and never look at again. I have to learn how to live my life using food as a tool of sustenance instead of using it as my drug of choice looking for that next fix.
After work today, I had to do some grocery shopping. I did well and got plenty of healthy food options, however, I did buy a package of cupcakes, without even realizing, I just picked them up. As I was on my way home, it started to sink in and it occured to me what I did and what the consequences could mean for me. I knew that I needed to snap out of this funk I let myself get into this week and pick up the pace of my journey before it totally gets away from me. So what became of those cupcakes you ask? Well, I will gladly tell you! I came home, put down my bags of groceries, took the cupcakes, walked right back out the door and headed for the back of my apartment building. What's back there? The dumpsters!! And that is where those cupcakes are right now. I then came back into my apartment, put away my groceries and changed into my work out clothes because I knew that I had to get my ass on the beast to sweat out some of the crap I've let myself eat.
So tonight, after working out and eating a light dinner, after having a cool shower, because its hot as hell in my apartment, I find myself in an almost coaching state of mind. I keep telling myself that I can do this. I just need to pick it right back up where I left it off last Thursday and this it totally possible.
The most important thing for me right now is to remain positive and ensure that that infamous demon of self doubt doesn't creep in on me tonight in my sleep. So I had a mishap, we all have. But I am picking right back up and moving forward.
We can do this everyone!! For any out there who are struggling too, please know that you are not alone. this is why I am writing this blog. Because I know I'm not alone. I know that there are so many other people that have the same hurdles as I do. We can do this together!
Misty
xo
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
You win some you lose some
I had big hopes for today. I had a job interview for an Analyst role but it just didn't go so well. This particular role ended up being way to technical and I didn't have any of the qualifications that was required. The hiring manager was great and took some time to give me some pointers and some advice on what types of things I need. There are some courses that I am looking into taking. Although it was a setback I need to stay positive. But I gotta be honest here, I did have a little melt down after the interview. I just got my hopes up.
As most people know about me I am quite emotional. Total emotional girl here! Sometimes the emotions take over before I realize it and the tears start rollin'. I just put so many expectations on myself and when it doesn't happen I feel that old monster of disappointment creep up on me again. It's almost like it's an old bad habit, hard to break free from it. I am in a good place, I feel great and really do have a bright outlook on what is to come. But for a few minutes, good ole disappointment in myself makes an appearance.
Why is that I wonder? Why does it seem to slip in there? Once I realize it's there, I kick it back out, but why or maybe how does it make its way in? My only answer to that is this. As much as living a healthy lifestyle and eating healthy and exercising is important, it's still a struggle. The physical aspect of the journey I am on is like jumping hurdles everyday. Well, the mental and emotional aspect plays a part as well. Just like I'm teaching myself to live that healthy lifestyle physically, emotionally and mentally I have to take care of myself too. It's no secret that I've dealt with some dark demons. Now comes the time where living a positive life is for both my inner and outer self. There may have been a time where I would retreat into the darkness and try to hide there for as long as I could, but that time has passed. I want to live the absolute best life I can. I don't want to hide anymore. I don't want to pretend that life is peachy. I am determined to find that happy life because I know that I truly and absolutely deserve it. I may still come across a few road bumps along the way but you know what? That's okay. I'm allowed to. I'm not following anyones rules here. I am making up my own rules as I go.
So, just because I didn't get this job today......I am choosing to look at it as 'No sweat' I am going to use this as another stepping stone to get me one step closer to where I am supposed to be.
I did use the frustration I felt to my advantage! When I came home from work I popped in one of my Biggest Loser workout DVD's and let it kick my ass. And I actually felt better after. You know, there might something to this exercising thing...LOL! Aside from getting out some tension, working out is letting me start to see changes in my body when it comes to clothes. I still can't see any changes looking into the mirror, but clothes don't lie. Not only was I able to wear a pair of dress pants today that I haven't been able to get over my ass since last year, a few ladies from my office made comments to me that the jeans I was wearing yesterday were too big for me! Really? Hahahaha Yay!!!! They said that the jeans were saggy in the bum. HA! How about that?!
Thanks for tuning in again boys and girls!! Keep smiling and stay on the positive track with me. I promise that it is worth it!! Doesn't it feel great?! Yah, I know!!
Misty
xo
As most people know about me I am quite emotional. Total emotional girl here! Sometimes the emotions take over before I realize it and the tears start rollin'. I just put so many expectations on myself and when it doesn't happen I feel that old monster of disappointment creep up on me again. It's almost like it's an old bad habit, hard to break free from it. I am in a good place, I feel great and really do have a bright outlook on what is to come. But for a few minutes, good ole disappointment in myself makes an appearance.
Why is that I wonder? Why does it seem to slip in there? Once I realize it's there, I kick it back out, but why or maybe how does it make its way in? My only answer to that is this. As much as living a healthy lifestyle and eating healthy and exercising is important, it's still a struggle. The physical aspect of the journey I am on is like jumping hurdles everyday. Well, the mental and emotional aspect plays a part as well. Just like I'm teaching myself to live that healthy lifestyle physically, emotionally and mentally I have to take care of myself too. It's no secret that I've dealt with some dark demons. Now comes the time where living a positive life is for both my inner and outer self. There may have been a time where I would retreat into the darkness and try to hide there for as long as I could, but that time has passed. I want to live the absolute best life I can. I don't want to hide anymore. I don't want to pretend that life is peachy. I am determined to find that happy life because I know that I truly and absolutely deserve it. I may still come across a few road bumps along the way but you know what? That's okay. I'm allowed to. I'm not following anyones rules here. I am making up my own rules as I go.
So, just because I didn't get this job today......I am choosing to look at it as 'No sweat' I am going to use this as another stepping stone to get me one step closer to where I am supposed to be.
I did use the frustration I felt to my advantage! When I came home from work I popped in one of my Biggest Loser workout DVD's and let it kick my ass. And I actually felt better after. You know, there might something to this exercising thing...LOL! Aside from getting out some tension, working out is letting me start to see changes in my body when it comes to clothes. I still can't see any changes looking into the mirror, but clothes don't lie. Not only was I able to wear a pair of dress pants today that I haven't been able to get over my ass since last year, a few ladies from my office made comments to me that the jeans I was wearing yesterday were too big for me! Really? Hahahaha Yay!!!! They said that the jeans were saggy in the bum. HA! How about that?!
Thanks for tuning in again boys and girls!! Keep smiling and stay on the positive track with me. I promise that it is worth it!! Doesn't it feel great?! Yah, I know!!
Misty
xo
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Mini Goal Victory!!!
Oh Happy Day!!! I have reached my first mini goal!!! As a mini goal I set out to lose 20lbs and as of this morning I have lost 21lbs. YAY me!!!!
I feel so great and actually proud of myself. I know that I still have alot to learn when it comes to healthy eating and exercising but I am getting there. Learning something new every week, every day....I am a little on the bubbly side right now!!
If I have learned anything over these last few months that has really stuck with me is that you only get what you put in to this. If you are serious about making a change and really want to see the benefits of what you are working towards it really is a full time commitment! It's hard work and if I'm being honest, I need to work harder. So I will, if that's what it takes!
My next mini goal is to hit 50lbs. So 29 more lbs to go. I can do it! And so can any of you out there who are reading this. We have all heard people say, 'If I can do it, so can you'. Sometimes that would really frustrate me. Everyones journey is a struggle in a different way. We all have varying obstacles to overcome and what I find and easy change may not be for you and vice versa.
I feel so great and actually proud of myself. I know that I still have alot to learn when it comes to healthy eating and exercising but I am getting there. Learning something new every week, every day....I am a little on the bubbly side right now!!
If I have learned anything over these last few months that has really stuck with me is that you only get what you put in to this. If you are serious about making a change and really want to see the benefits of what you are working towards it really is a full time commitment! It's hard work and if I'm being honest, I need to work harder. So I will, if that's what it takes!
My next mini goal is to hit 50lbs. So 29 more lbs to go. I can do it! And so can any of you out there who are reading this. We have all heard people say, 'If I can do it, so can you'. Sometimes that would really frustrate me. Everyones journey is a struggle in a different way. We all have varying obstacles to overcome and what I find and easy change may not be for you and vice versa.
Short and sweet post today kids. Don't forget to tune in Monday for another Meatless Monday. Until then, take it easy!
Misty xo
"What this power is I cannot say; all I know is that it exists and it
becomes available only when a man is in that state of mind in which he knows
exactly what he wants and is fully determined not to quit until
he finds it." ~Alexander Graham Bell
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Just another Sunday
Happy Sunday all! Hope everyone is having a great weekend! I wanted to post a quick note here. I have had a rough week. I didn't gain but I didn't lose either. This just tells me that I need to eat better still and also sweat more. I started using one of my Biggest Loser workout DVDs and I think this will be the ticket. Yes walking on the beast is great for me, and I do get the heart rate going and work up a sweat but not enough, obviously. I'm still learning here. I'm still motivated and still know that I can reach my ultimate goals, I just need to re-adjust and re-plan my next moves. I'm down 19lbs in total and that is something to be proud of. I just have to keep up the pace and stay focused and motivated. Baby steps yes, but eventually my baby steps are going to need to turn into big girl steps.
I have been doing quite a bit of research online as well as looking for as many healthful tips as I can. Even though there are oodles of them out there and I of course won't use them all, even if I can obtain a few a week that I implement into my daily routine. thought I would share some of the tips with you.
Healing Hands
I am a crafty person. I find that if I am keeping busy doing a craft like scrap booking, it keeps my hands busy with a non-food activity.
Sweet Treats
Smoothies are my new post-workout reward. I either make a protein smoothie that gives my a yummy chocolate kick or I make a low fat fruit smoothie with lots of fruit and non-fat yogurt.
Gourmet Flavour
Instead of mindlessly eating a candy bar or a heaping bowl of ice cream, it's all about portions. I've figured out that I really don;t need the entire bowl of ice cream. I really only crave the taste so a few bites really do get me through. For Chocolate, I break off one or two pieces of dark chocolate, eating one piece at a time, letting it melt on my tongue. By the time I'm done, my craving has gone away. For ice cream, I just found the best thing at the grocery store.
These little Skinny Cow ice creams are only 150 calories and there were a few different flavours to choose from!! YAY!!!
Well, that's it for today. Tune in tomorrow. I am starting a Meatless Monday post. So if you are into trying a vegetarian lifestyle for the day, I will have some fabulous recipes that anyone can make that are so tasty and animal friendly.
Talk care kiddies,
Misty xo
Thursday, June 9, 2011
1 donut, 2 donut, 3 donut...NONE!
Cough cough sniffle sniffle. I am still under the weather however feeling better today then yesterday. I came down with a nasty cold and cough a few days ago. My mom was here visiting me for a few days over the weekend and go figure, the day she leaves I get sick. And I'm not ashamed to admit, I asked her to come back and take care of me! You guys know what I'm talkin about. Moms just know how take make the sniffles better. She didn't come back mind you....no really I'm fine, the tears dried up last night.
With having this cold I haven't had much of an appetite which could be a good thing but at the same time I know I'm not getting enough nourishment. I was a little hungry today so I did alright with eating proper meals.
Now here comes the dilemma. Since feeling a bit better today, I thought about walking up to the Tim Hortons to grab a coffee, and no sooner did that thought come into my mind, so did the thought of getting a few donuts too. Before I go any further, let me just say that I didn't. Here is where the difficulty of being a food addict comes into play. When my mind gets wrapped around something like food there are times where it is hard to let it go. I have used food as my drug of choice for many years and its not something that I can easily get past. Its going to be hard, there will always be hurdles infront of me. instead of going to booze or drugs, I just always turned to food. I actually just read an article not too long ago that said there was a study being conducted which stated that foods high in fats, sugars and carbs can potentially give you the same response in the brain that we see from drugs like cocaine. This makes total sense to me because I can see how this can lead its way into compulsive over-eating. You need to keep eating to try to reach that ultimate 'high' again. Scary I know and some of you may totally disagree with this. That's fine, I just ask that you keep an open mind. The way many of us deal with stresses are different, much like the way we each deal with addictions are different.
In normal circumstances, getting a coffee and a donut are not a bad thing. I'm not about to deprive myself completely of the things I want, but ensuring that I can maintain control is also important. As I sat on the bed, contemplating, I told myself to be real. Could I really only get one donut? Would I be satisfied with just one? And sadly, I knew the answer. I knew that I couldn't buy just one so the best thing for me to do was not go at all. If I went in there with a different mind set, then I would have been ok. But on this particular morning it wasn't an option for me.
I wonder, is this going to be something that I have to deal with for the rest of my life? I think so. I think that I will learn as I go and my choices will become easier as I go along, however, like an addict, I will always have temptations and my job is to fight them and learn that I can overcome them.
I know that I am by no means alone in this battle. There are so many who struggle the same struggles when it comes to food. We all just have to learn what we can do to jump over the food hurdle. I just wish that it wasn't a cupcake looking back at me when I jump over it!
Because I scared myself a little this morning, I though I had better get my ass on the treadmill. I haven't been on all week on account of being sick. I stepped on today but couldn't last even a minute on account of coughing and hacking. I do feel on the rotten side that I haven't worked out all week but I know that I have a valid reason. This just makes me look forward to when I can again.....WHOA...did I just say that? I think I did. I think I am excited to climb back on the beast and give him a what for! Fingers crossed I can get back to my routine in a few days.
I'm just 1.5 lbs away from hitting my 20 pound weight loss mark. Hopefully will hit that soon and I will be sure to let everyone know!! I'm always looking for tips and healthy snack options. If any of you know of any and would like to share, please do so. I will share some of mine next time too!
Thanks guys for tuning in!
Misty
xo
With having this cold I haven't had much of an appetite which could be a good thing but at the same time I know I'm not getting enough nourishment. I was a little hungry today so I did alright with eating proper meals.
Now here comes the dilemma. Since feeling a bit better today, I thought about walking up to the Tim Hortons to grab a coffee, and no sooner did that thought come into my mind, so did the thought of getting a few donuts too. Before I go any further, let me just say that I didn't. Here is where the difficulty of being a food addict comes into play. When my mind gets wrapped around something like food there are times where it is hard to let it go. I have used food as my drug of choice for many years and its not something that I can easily get past. Its going to be hard, there will always be hurdles infront of me. instead of going to booze or drugs, I just always turned to food. I actually just read an article not too long ago that said there was a study being conducted which stated that foods high in fats, sugars and carbs can potentially give you the same response in the brain that we see from drugs like cocaine. This makes total sense to me because I can see how this can lead its way into compulsive over-eating. You need to keep eating to try to reach that ultimate 'high' again. Scary I know and some of you may totally disagree with this. That's fine, I just ask that you keep an open mind. The way many of us deal with stresses are different, much like the way we each deal with addictions are different.
In normal circumstances, getting a coffee and a donut are not a bad thing. I'm not about to deprive myself completely of the things I want, but ensuring that I can maintain control is also important. As I sat on the bed, contemplating, I told myself to be real. Could I really only get one donut? Would I be satisfied with just one? And sadly, I knew the answer. I knew that I couldn't buy just one so the best thing for me to do was not go at all. If I went in there with a different mind set, then I would have been ok. But on this particular morning it wasn't an option for me.
I wonder, is this going to be something that I have to deal with for the rest of my life? I think so. I think that I will learn as I go and my choices will become easier as I go along, however, like an addict, I will always have temptations and my job is to fight them and learn that I can overcome them.
I know that I am by no means alone in this battle. There are so many who struggle the same struggles when it comes to food. We all just have to learn what we can do to jump over the food hurdle. I just wish that it wasn't a cupcake looking back at me when I jump over it!
Because I scared myself a little this morning, I though I had better get my ass on the treadmill. I haven't been on all week on account of being sick. I stepped on today but couldn't last even a minute on account of coughing and hacking. I do feel on the rotten side that I haven't worked out all week but I know that I have a valid reason. This just makes me look forward to when I can again.....WHOA...did I just say that? I think I did. I think I am excited to climb back on the beast and give him a what for! Fingers crossed I can get back to my routine in a few days.
I'm just 1.5 lbs away from hitting my 20 pound weight loss mark. Hopefully will hit that soon and I will be sure to let everyone know!! I'm always looking for tips and healthy snack options. If any of you know of any and would like to share, please do so. I will share some of mine next time too!
Thanks guys for tuning in!
Misty
xo
Monday, May 16, 2011
So It Begins.....
Well lookie lookie......who's down 16 lbs!! With the few pounds that I lost before my week long detox plus the 10 lbs I lost during the detox I could not be any happier with myself right now! I feel great and so happy that I accomplished what I set out to do. Complete the 7 day cleanse without cheating. YAY ME!!
Although I still have such a long road ahead of me, this journey that I now find myself on seems a bit brighter and 100% possible for me to do. This is totally in my reach!
I know that are much more intense detox programs out there to get all the crap out of your system. But I didn't want to take on more then I could chew...no pun intended. I wanted something that was going to be a challenge for me but at the same time would not be so difficult that I would quit after 2 days and then continue on the vicious cycle of how I'm a failure.
There needs to be alot less of that attitude and more of this new positive outlook that I find I have now. Naturally I will still have set backs and get down on myself. I'm not perfect and like I said earlier...this is a journey. A journey filled with bumps and windy curves, sometimes not knowing what is just around the corner.
Too much time has been lost to the negative 'I can't do anything' way of thinking. How many of us are so incredibly self critical that it has damaged our very core? No matter what anyone could say about me I can guarantee that I have said 10 times worse things about myself. Hurtful unforgivable things that I wouldn't say to my worst enemy, I didn't think twice about saying it to the depressed lonely woman who looks back at me in the mirror every morning.
I may always suffer with depression. I may always have to deal with my OCD but these obstacles do not define me. Just like my childhood doesn't define who I am. I don't want to be that wounded child any longer. I want to be the strong survivor that I know I have inside.
So let me reiterate ......YAY ME!!
This morning at the office I was actually excited to get home and climb up on the treadmill. While en route home I started to try and think of excuses to not get on. Crazy eh? Yah I know! As soon as I walked in the door, without even putting the groceries away, I headed straight for my bedroom, changed and went right for the treadmill. I knew that if I was going to accomplish this simple thing, I had to do it right then and there because although in reality it is a simple thing, to me at that moment it was like pulling teeth. Seriously Misty? My treadmill literally sits right in behind my couch. It's not a far walk. No more excuses!!!!!! Once on the beast I had no problems with staying on. I did my 30 minutes at a 2.5 speed. Not terribly fast I know, but gimme a break. I got lots of junk in the trunk to carry!
So now off to make dinner. I'm thinking salmon with some brown rice and some steamed broccoli. On that note, take a peek at this Dana Carvey clip. Always pops in my mind when I think of broccoli.
http://youtu.be/E-jk1prajc8
Thanks for tuning in kids, until next time. Have a good one!
Misty
xo
Although I still have such a long road ahead of me, this journey that I now find myself on seems a bit brighter and 100% possible for me to do. This is totally in my reach!
I know that are much more intense detox programs out there to get all the crap out of your system. But I didn't want to take on more then I could chew...no pun intended. I wanted something that was going to be a challenge for me but at the same time would not be so difficult that I would quit after 2 days and then continue on the vicious cycle of how I'm a failure.
There needs to be alot less of that attitude and more of this new positive outlook that I find I have now. Naturally I will still have set backs and get down on myself. I'm not perfect and like I said earlier...this is a journey. A journey filled with bumps and windy curves, sometimes not knowing what is just around the corner.
Too much time has been lost to the negative 'I can't do anything' way of thinking. How many of us are so incredibly self critical that it has damaged our very core? No matter what anyone could say about me I can guarantee that I have said 10 times worse things about myself. Hurtful unforgivable things that I wouldn't say to my worst enemy, I didn't think twice about saying it to the depressed lonely woman who looks back at me in the mirror every morning.
I may always suffer with depression. I may always have to deal with my OCD but these obstacles do not define me. Just like my childhood doesn't define who I am. I don't want to be that wounded child any longer. I want to be the strong survivor that I know I have inside.
So let me reiterate ......YAY ME!!
This morning at the office I was actually excited to get home and climb up on the treadmill. While en route home I started to try and think of excuses to not get on. Crazy eh? Yah I know! As soon as I walked in the door, without even putting the groceries away, I headed straight for my bedroom, changed and went right for the treadmill. I knew that if I was going to accomplish this simple thing, I had to do it right then and there because although in reality it is a simple thing, to me at that moment it was like pulling teeth. Seriously Misty? My treadmill literally sits right in behind my couch. It's not a far walk. No more excuses!!!!!! Once on the beast I had no problems with staying on. I did my 30 minutes at a 2.5 speed. Not terribly fast I know, but gimme a break. I got lots of junk in the trunk to carry!
So now off to make dinner. I'm thinking salmon with some brown rice and some steamed broccoli. On that note, take a peek at this Dana Carvey clip. Always pops in my mind when I think of broccoli.
http://youtu.be/E-jk1prajc8
Thanks for tuning in kids, until next time. Have a good one!
Misty
xo
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