Today, on my 34th birthday I know how truly blessed I am! On a day that could have consumed me with what I don't have and who isn't apart of it, I was shown that I am loved and that love fills my heart right now.
With beautiful messages from friends and family left on my Facebook page, the emails I have received and the texts and bbm messages wishing me a happy and wonderful year, I thank each and every one who took the few moments out of their days to let me know that I am loved. That I am thought about. In the end, that's all that we really want right? To know that you matter. To know that aside from the hectic lives that we all lead, knowing that someone will take even just a few minutes to let you know you are special. That means the world to me.
I received a beautiful flower delivery at work today from my mom. She always knows just what to do! Just knowing that I have one parent out there in the world who loves me and will always take the time to tell me and show me means more then I can say. With a biological father who doesn't care enough to even have me in his life, knowing that I have her love and support is all I need.
Today marks the beginning of my countdown. I am giving myself one year. One year to lose weight, get healthy and get baby ready. By this time next year, on my 35th birthday, I want to be walking into a fertility clinic, ready and able to get pregnant. With the recent medical issues that have arisen this past year, I am determined to reverse what is happening and be physically able to get pregnant and have a beautiful baby of my own. Since being diagnosed with PCOD, and the specialist I was sent to telling me that I am infertile, it broke my heart. After finding out that it is reversable, I felt like I was given another chance. With being on this new journey of living a healthy life, now its time ti kick this into high gear. One year and then BABY MINE!!
I'm going to start doing some research and hopefully will be able to speak to someone at the fertility clinic here in Toronto in hopes of getting as much information as I can. In 365 days, I think I can learn alot!
Take it easy everyone!
Misty
xo
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Monday, September 5, 2011
Remembering 9/11
We find ourselves on the eve of an incredible tragedy. In just a few short days we will be on the 10 year anniversary of 9/11. September 11, 2001 will forever be etched in our minds as a day of terror, loss and the beginning of battle.
This post is going to be a little different from the usual. I wanted to send out my love and thoughts to any and all who read this, remembering 9/11 along with me. This is my way to make a tribute, remembering.
This will always be a day in our history that each and every one of us will remember exactly where we were when we heard. We will remember exactly who we were with, what we were wearing and each step we took that day as we all felt the slow but painful accumulative ache building within us for what was happening to our fellow man. That powerful tidal wave of emotion rushing over us as we saw it all unfold right before our eyes on the television, through the shaky hands of the persons videotaping the catastrophic nightmare. The attacks that were brought forth in New York City, to the Twin Towers, the Pentagon in Virgina and the forth plane that crashed in a field in Pennsylvania, that was intended to hit in Washington D.C. were full of hatred and pure evilness.
I still sit and wonder how on earth this could have happened. How someone could live with so much hate inside themselves to plan such a horrid attack on another fellow man. My connection to the attacks on 9/11 and all of the lives lost is the human one. I did not know personally any of the 2,753 victims who, unbeknownst to them that morning when they went in to work or boarded one of those four planes that they would be sacrificing the ultimate sacrifice in giving their lives for their country, for mankind in the fight for the greater good. I can feel the lump rising in my throat even now just remembering, going back to that fateful day, and I am not among any of the people who are grieving over a lost loved one. I can't even imagine what it is to have lost someone by such a senseless act of venomous devastation.
The time for hurting one another has got to come to an end. Each of those precious lives lost must not have been lost in vain. At the risk of sounding incredibly cheesy here, don't we owe it to them to continue on loving and respecting each other? Obviously, us as the general public can't make big country wide decisions, deploying out thousands and thousands of men and women to fight for our rights. But there is something that you can do. That I can do. I'm as guilty as the next person when it comes to casting down a judgement against someone. Whether if its what they're wearing or how annoying I think they are. We all do it. We all whisper behind each others backs. We have all walked past, or worse, over someone who may be in need.
It's terrible that the events of September 11th have come to pass. What's even more terrible is that it took those events to make us aware that we need to treat each other better. Love each other better. Love ourselves better. Don't walk past that homeless person on the street and then make a comment to your friend about their poor hygiene. Stop and acknowledge them. Let them know they are still have that human connection with someone.
The measure of a man's real character is what he would do if he knew he never would be found out. ~ Thomas Babington Macaulay
Integrity is not a conditional word. It doesn't blow in the wind or change with the weather. It is your inner image of yourself, and if you look in there and see a man who won't cheat, then you know he will never will. ~ John D. MacDonald
This year on September 11th, I invite each one of you to join me in a moment of silence for all of the lives lost 10 years ago. In that moment, I encourage you to reflect back on who we have lost and also what we can gain. Think about something that you can do for someone, whether it be a loved one or a complete stranger. A small act of kindness to brighten someones day. We can do it! We all can make these tiny changes to better someones day. I'd love to hear about any acts of kindess that you do.
Much love to all.
Misty
xo
This post is going to be a little different from the usual. I wanted to send out my love and thoughts to any and all who read this, remembering 9/11 along with me. This is my way to make a tribute, remembering.
This will always be a day in our history that each and every one of us will remember exactly where we were when we heard. We will remember exactly who we were with, what we were wearing and each step we took that day as we all felt the slow but painful accumulative ache building within us for what was happening to our fellow man. That powerful tidal wave of emotion rushing over us as we saw it all unfold right before our eyes on the television, through the shaky hands of the persons videotaping the catastrophic nightmare. The attacks that were brought forth in New York City, to the Twin Towers, the Pentagon in Virgina and the forth plane that crashed in a field in Pennsylvania, that was intended to hit in Washington D.C. were full of hatred and pure evilness.
I still sit and wonder how on earth this could have happened. How someone could live with so much hate inside themselves to plan such a horrid attack on another fellow man. My connection to the attacks on 9/11 and all of the lives lost is the human one. I did not know personally any of the 2,753 victims who, unbeknownst to them that morning when they went in to work or boarded one of those four planes that they would be sacrificing the ultimate sacrifice in giving their lives for their country, for mankind in the fight for the greater good. I can feel the lump rising in my throat even now just remembering, going back to that fateful day, and I am not among any of the people who are grieving over a lost loved one. I can't even imagine what it is to have lost someone by such a senseless act of venomous devastation.
The time for hurting one another has got to come to an end. Each of those precious lives lost must not have been lost in vain. At the risk of sounding incredibly cheesy here, don't we owe it to them to continue on loving and respecting each other? Obviously, us as the general public can't make big country wide decisions, deploying out thousands and thousands of men and women to fight for our rights. But there is something that you can do. That I can do. I'm as guilty as the next person when it comes to casting down a judgement against someone. Whether if its what they're wearing or how annoying I think they are. We all do it. We all whisper behind each others backs. We have all walked past, or worse, over someone who may be in need.
It's terrible that the events of September 11th have come to pass. What's even more terrible is that it took those events to make us aware that we need to treat each other better. Love each other better. Love ourselves better. Don't walk past that homeless person on the street and then make a comment to your friend about their poor hygiene. Stop and acknowledge them. Let them know they are still have that human connection with someone.
The measure of a man's real character is what he would do if he knew he never would be found out. ~ Thomas Babington Macaulay
Integrity is not a conditional word. It doesn't blow in the wind or change with the weather. It is your inner image of yourself, and if you look in there and see a man who won't cheat, then you know he will never will. ~ John D. MacDonald
This year on September 11th, I invite each one of you to join me in a moment of silence for all of the lives lost 10 years ago. In that moment, I encourage you to reflect back on who we have lost and also what we can gain. Think about something that you can do for someone, whether it be a loved one or a complete stranger. A small act of kindness to brighten someones day. We can do it! We all can make these tiny changes to better someones day. I'd love to hear about any acts of kindess that you do.
Much love to all.
Misty
xo
Thursday, September 1, 2011
CNE 2011
Yesterday, I had a work team building event at the CNE. It's a huge fair that comes along this time every year and lasts for a few weeks. Full of rides, food, games, pavilions of every type, it was a fun and tiring day. Most definitely will do that again next year!
However, fun and sun aside, there was one part of the day that caused me to worry. The food. Not just any food. I'm not talking about the normal carnival/fair food that you are used to seeing. The popcorn stands to the cotton candy and candy apple booths. They are familiar are are all apart of the entire atmosphere. No, not talking about those at all. I'm talking about the new stuff. The food that seems to be getting more popular over the last few years. It leaves me to wonder if there is a group of people whose job it is to sit in a kitchen and come up with different foods they can dip in batter and deep fry.
If you wanted to stay away from something that was fried, you can always have the Epic Burger. A cheese burger with the works, an egg and the clincher? Instead of regular buns, the burger is between 2 krispy creme donuts. Seriously??
For the deep fried enthusiast there was so many grease dripping options. Let's see....where to begin? Deep fried butter, deep fried mars bars, deep fried peanut and jam on a stick, deep fried pop tarts, deep fried brownies, deep fried coke, deep fried cherry aid, deep fried twinkies. Whew! I'm sure I'm missing more. These are just the ones that I saw booths for.
As someone who is trying to eat healthy and eliminate and 'dangerous' food that I always seem pulled towards, it was just unbelievable to me that there was so many killer foods. Moderation is a key part, I know. I did have a few bites of the deep fried coke and was able to throw the rest away. And if I'm being honest, there was a few things that I wanted to partake in, like the deep fried brownie but I resisted.
I just find it upsetting that there was so much of this, everywhere you looked, there was a deep fried this or a candy coated that. No wonder there is so many health and weight related illnesses.
I know I can't control what anyone else eats. I also know that we all have much much different eating habits. Some people can walk away from the sugar and the grease and not think twice about it. While others need to physically remove themselves before being consumed by it all. It would just be nice to have those temptations disappear. But I suppose that this all goes back to me. It's not what is around me but what is within myself. I have to consciously make the right choices everyday and I have to work at it. It doesn't come easy to me, and I'm ok with that. I might complain about it and begrudgingly shuffle my feet away from what I crave but in the end those tough choices are what is going to grant me a healthy and happy life. After all....Baby Mine!!
Thanks for tuning in guys.
Misty
xo
However, fun and sun aside, there was one part of the day that caused me to worry. The food. Not just any food. I'm not talking about the normal carnival/fair food that you are used to seeing. The popcorn stands to the cotton candy and candy apple booths. They are familiar are are all apart of the entire atmosphere. No, not talking about those at all. I'm talking about the new stuff. The food that seems to be getting more popular over the last few years. It leaves me to wonder if there is a group of people whose job it is to sit in a kitchen and come up with different foods they can dip in batter and deep fry.
If you wanted to stay away from something that was fried, you can always have the Epic Burger. A cheese burger with the works, an egg and the clincher? Instead of regular buns, the burger is between 2 krispy creme donuts. Seriously??
For the deep fried enthusiast there was so many grease dripping options. Let's see....where to begin? Deep fried butter, deep fried mars bars, deep fried peanut and jam on a stick, deep fried pop tarts, deep fried brownies, deep fried coke, deep fried cherry aid, deep fried twinkies. Whew! I'm sure I'm missing more. These are just the ones that I saw booths for.
As someone who is trying to eat healthy and eliminate and 'dangerous' food that I always seem pulled towards, it was just unbelievable to me that there was so many killer foods. Moderation is a key part, I know. I did have a few bites of the deep fried coke and was able to throw the rest away. And if I'm being honest, there was a few things that I wanted to partake in, like the deep fried brownie but I resisted.
I just find it upsetting that there was so much of this, everywhere you looked, there was a deep fried this or a candy coated that. No wonder there is so many health and weight related illnesses.
I know I can't control what anyone else eats. I also know that we all have much much different eating habits. Some people can walk away from the sugar and the grease and not think twice about it. While others need to physically remove themselves before being consumed by it all. It would just be nice to have those temptations disappear. But I suppose that this all goes back to me. It's not what is around me but what is within myself. I have to consciously make the right choices everyday and I have to work at it. It doesn't come easy to me, and I'm ok with that. I might complain about it and begrudgingly shuffle my feet away from what I crave but in the end those tough choices are what is going to grant me a healthy and happy life. After all....Baby Mine!!
Thanks for tuning in guys.
Misty
xo
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