Surround yourself with only people who are going to lift you higher. ~ OPRAH


In this day and time, we all are in search of something. Knowing what that something is may not be clear, but the ache sensation inside us is real. We can feel it. My hope in writing this blog is not only to benefit me but for you as well. For me, it provides me a sort of therapy. I can get my thoughts and feelings out there, knowing that someone can understand. It’s for you because I truly believe we follow certain paths. A path that has brought you to this very site. Whether what I have to say is meant for you to read personally or for you to share with someone else that may need it. I believe that we all are connected by one commonality. We all want to be seen. We all want to heard. We all want to know we matter. Well my Friend, I see you, I hear you and you do matter.


Tuesday, June 28, 2011

You win some you lose some

I had big hopes for today. I had a job interview for an Analyst role but it just didn't go so well. This particular role ended up being way to technical and I didn't have any of the qualifications that was required. The hiring manager was great and took some time to give me some pointers and some advice on what types of things I need. There are some courses that I am looking into taking. Although it was a setback I need to stay positive. But I gotta be honest here, I did have a little melt down after the interview. I just got my hopes up.

As most people know about me I am quite emotional. Total emotional girl here! Sometimes the emotions take over before I realize it and the tears start rollin'. I just put so many expectations on myself and when it doesn't happen I feel that old monster of disappointment creep up on me again. It's almost like it's an old bad habit, hard to break free from it. I am in a good place, I feel great and really do have a bright outlook on what is to come. But for a few minutes, good ole disappointment in myself makes an appearance.

Why is that I wonder? Why does it seem to slip in there? Once I realize it's there, I kick it back out, but why or maybe how does it make its way in? My only answer to that is this. As much as living a healthy lifestyle and eating healthy and exercising is important, it's still a struggle. The physical aspect of the journey I am on is like jumping hurdles everyday. Well, the mental and emotional aspect plays a part as well. Just like I'm teaching myself to live that healthy lifestyle physically, emotionally and mentally I have to take care of myself too. It's no secret that I've dealt with some dark demons. Now comes the time where living a positive life is for both my inner and outer self. There may have been a time where I would retreat into the darkness and try to hide there for as long as I could, but that time has passed. I want to live the absolute best life I can. I don't want to hide anymore. I don't want to pretend that life is peachy. I am determined to find that happy life because I know that I truly and absolutely deserve it. I may still come across a few road bumps along the way but you know what? That's okay. I'm allowed to. I'm not following anyones rules here. I am making up my own rules as I go.

So, just because I didn't get this job today......I am choosing to look at it as 'No sweat' I am going to use this as another stepping stone to get me one step closer to where I am supposed to be.

I did use the frustration I felt to my advantage! When I came home from work I popped in one of my Biggest Loser workout DVD's and let it kick my ass. And I actually felt better after. You know, there might something to this exercising thing...LOL! Aside from getting out some tension, working out is letting me start to see changes in my body when it comes to clothes. I still can't see any changes looking into the mirror, but clothes don't lie. Not only was I able to wear a pair of dress pants today that I haven't been able to get over my ass since last year, a few ladies from my office made comments to me that the jeans I was wearing yesterday were too big for me! Really? Hahahaha Yay!!!! They said that the jeans were saggy in the bum. HA! How about that?!

Thanks for tuning in again boys and girls!! Keep smiling and stay on the positive track with me. I promise that it is worth it!! Doesn't it feel great?! Yah, I know!!

Misty
xo

Monday, June 27, 2011

Another Meatless Monday

Today, on the menu is Stuffed Peppers.....I just took them out of the oven and let me tell you...the smell is absolutely divine!
I couldn't find any recipes that appealed to me so I made this one up as I went along.


Misty's Vegetarian Stuffed Peppers


6 lg red peppers - cut in half and seeded
1 pkg Yves Veggie Ground Round
1 cup cooked brown rice
4 tbsp EVOO
1-2 garlic cloves - minced
1 cup red kidney beans - rinsed well
1 cup stewed tomato's
1 jar of your favourite pasta sauce - I used Classico Four Cheese


Heat oven to 400.
In a large pot of boiling water, add the peppers once they have been washed, cut in half and seeded. Boil for about 10-15 minutes.
Cook rice according to directions on box and set aside.
Open up can of kidney beans, empty into a strainer and rinse very well. Also open up tin of stewed tomato's and drain those as well; set aside.
In a large frying pan add the EVOO and garlic. Saute garlic for a few minutes just be sure to watch it so the garlic doesn't burn. Add the Yves 'meat' and cook for 8 minutes. Season to taste. I added salt, pepper and some parsley.
When the peppers have boiled, they should be soft to touch but not falling apart. Add a few spoons of sauce to bottom of baking dish. Assemble peppers in dish. I also added a small spoon of sauce inside peppers. In a large bowl mix together rice, kidney beans, stewed tomato's and 1.5 cups meat mixture. Incorporate everything together really well. Scoop mixture inside peppers. Top with remaining sauce and sprinkle some parm cheese on the top.
Cover with tin foil and bake for 25-30 minutes. Let stand 10 minutes and dig in!!!! ENJOY FRIENDS!!!!!!!











Until next time!
Misty
xo

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Mini Goal Victory!!!

Oh Happy Day!!! I have reached my first mini goal!!! As a mini goal I set out to lose 20lbs and as of this morning I have lost 21lbs. YAY me!!!!
I feel so great and actually proud of myself. I know that I still have alot to learn when it comes to healthy eating and exercising but I am getting there. Learning something new every week, every day....I am a little on the bubbly side right now!!

If I have learned anything over these last few months that has really stuck with me is that you only get what you put in to this. If you are serious about making a change and really want to see the benefits of what you are working towards it really is a full time commitment! It's hard work and if I'm being honest, I need to work harder. So I will, if that's what it takes!

My next mini goal is to hit 50lbs. So 29 more lbs to go. I can do it! And so can any of you out there who are reading this. We have all heard people say, 'If I can do it, so can you'. Sometimes that would really frustrate me. Everyones journey is a struggle in a different way. We all have varying obstacles to overcome and what I find and easy change may not be for you and vice versa.

Short and sweet post today kids. Don't forget to tune in Monday for another Meatless Monday. Until then, take it easy!



Misty xo





"What this power is I cannot say; all I know is that it exists and it
becomes available only when a man is in that state of mind in which he knows
exactly what he wants and is fully determined not to quit until
he finds it." ~Alexander Graham Bell

Monday, June 20, 2011

Meatless Monday

Happy Monday Everyone!
As promised welcome to Meatless Mondays! I made myself a YUM-O California style veggie burger and matched it with a salad.








1/2 avocado, sliced thin
1/2 roasted red pepper
2 tbsp BBQ sauce
1/4 cup shredded cheese
1 veggie burger patty, I use LICKS Nature Burgers....So amazing!
1 thin burger bun
Salad, I used an Iceberg Medley
2 tbsp dressing, I used PC Artichoke and Asia go

Using my George Foreman grill, I coated it with a little EVOO. Once heated up I slide the veggie burger on there. It only takes about 4-5 minutes per side. I like to coat both sides with a little bit of BBQ sauce. Once its flipped over, add your red peppers to the grill. Then slice up your avocado. The other half, make sure to leave to pit in it as this will keep it from turning brown a little longer. Shred up your cheese and then place it on the burger about a minute or so before its done. Once the cheese begins to melt, top it off with the roasted red peppers
Once both sides are cooked up on the burger, place it on top of your bun. Top with the avocado slices and if you like a few lettuce leaves. Cover with other half of your bun. You can toast the bun if you like for a little extra crunch.
In total, the burger with all the fixins as well as the salad with the dressing, 790 calories.

So simple to make but I promise it is so tasty!!!! I find the avocado really makes the entire burger!!

Hope you guys enjoy! I know there are some head strong meat eaters out there but at least give it a try. You may not even be able to notice the difference.

Enjoy and until next time kids!

Misty
xo

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Just another Sunday

Happy Sunday all! Hope everyone is having a great weekend! I wanted to post a quick note here. I have had a rough week. I didn't gain but I didn't lose either. This just tells me that I need to eat better still and also sweat more. I started using one of my Biggest Loser workout DVDs and I think this will be the ticket. Yes walking on the beast is great for me, and I do get the heart rate going and work up a sweat but not enough, obviously. I'm still learning here. I'm still motivated and still know that I can reach my ultimate goals, I just need to re-adjust and re-plan my next moves. I'm down 19lbs in total and that is something to be proud of. I just have to keep up the pace and stay focused and motivated. Baby steps yes, but eventually my baby steps are going to need to turn into big girl steps.
I have been doing quite a bit of research online as well as looking for as many healthful tips as I can. Even though there are oodles of them out there and I of course won't use them all, even if I can obtain a few a week that I implement into my daily routine. thought I would share some of the tips with you.

Healing Hands

I am a crafty person. I find that if I am keeping busy doing a craft like scrap booking, it keeps my hands busy with a non-food activity.

Sweet Treats

Smoothies are my new post-workout reward. I either make a protein smoothie that gives my a yummy chocolate kick or I make a low fat fruit smoothie with lots of fruit and non-fat yogurt.

Gourmet Flavour

Instead of mindlessly eating a candy bar or a heaping bowl of ice cream, it's all about portions. I've figured out that I really don;t need the entire bowl of ice cream. I really only crave the taste so a few bites really do get me through. For Chocolate, I break off one or two pieces of dark chocolate, eating one piece at a time, letting it melt on my tongue. By the time I'm done, my craving has gone away. For ice cream, I just found the best thing at the grocery store.











These little Skinny Cow ice creams are only 150 calories and there were a few different flavours to choose from!! YAY!!!

Well, that's it for today. Tune in tomorrow. I am starting a Meatless Monday post. So if you are into trying a vegetarian lifestyle for the day, I will have some fabulous recipes that anyone can make that are so tasty and animal friendly.

Talk care kiddies,

Misty xo

Monday, June 13, 2011

I'm the $@*!

This morning, while on my way to get a coffee from the Timothy's at my office building, a feeling came over me that was a bit familiar, although it had been so long since I felt it, I wasn't quite sure what it was at first.
I finally realized what it was when a few random people walked past me and I didn't get my normal nervous fear of someone seeing me. Although the feeling only lasted for a brief few minutes, there it was! I was walking with my manager and I said 'You know I feel different today. Not like I have an attitude, but its something else. I feel like.... I'm the shit'.
I was actually walking with some confidence and it felt wonderful! For those few brief moments I felt deserving....and looked good enough to where if I was told a hot brother was checkin' me out I would actually believe it. Over the last few years if I ever heard 'Oh look, he's checkin' you' I would have an extremely difficult time believing that. (Maybe I was even walking with a strut. For those of you who know me personally, you know that I absolutely do not have a strut. I fear that I come across as looking as though I'm constipated. Fingers crossed the hot strut comes soon! LOL)
Like I said, it only lasted a few minutes but it put me in such a great mood today!
I know that I am doing something right. I know that my mind is changing, my way of thinking is changing. I think that is such a huge part of the battle right there. When you can alter your thinking and accept that nothing is just straight black and white, you are doing great! You are going in the right direction!
Black and white thinking is very hard for me to let go of. It's just the way my brain automatically is geared towards. I am feeling very optimistic that I am still on the right track and my journey to my new life has fully commenced!
So...YAY ME!!

I wanted to give you guys a few healthy tips that I find helpful. Remember, I am doing this in baby steps for the time being. Once I learn more and am more mobile, I plan on kicking this into high gear! After all, I have a 5k run to train for.

*Track what you eat. Everything. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, snacks....Everything. There are so many apps for your cell phones that you can download for free that provide you food trackers. I use Spark People because they have an app for BlackBerry users. I know a lot of people who have iPhone's use Lost It! I was tracking for a few weeks straight and was doing so well, but began to get lazy with it. I started it back up today and writing down everything I put into my mouth!!

*Don't eat after 7pm. For me, since I try to be in bed between before 11pm I do my best to make sure I don't eat anything after 7 o'clock. If I am starving then I will limit myself to a piece of fruit.

*Fill your fridge with fresh fruits and vegetables. This is something that I still struggle with but when I am able to do it, it does wonders for the entire week of eating. On the Sunday before the work week begins, cut up all your fresh fruits and veggies and pop them in the fridge. Make individual baggies of them so you can just grab and go. The more easy you can make eating healthy the better. How many times have we all said, I just don;t have time to eat a healthy meal or have time to cut up snacks for work in the morning. If you can set aside 30 minutes on a Sunday, you can eliminate all of the excuses for the rest of the week.

*Freeze some grapes. Sweets are a major downfall for me. I have found an awesome snack that gives me my sweet fix. It's as simple and washing a handful of grapes, putting them in a baggie and popping them in the freezer. Once they are frozen, they are the best yummy snack. Love them!!

*Make changes gradually. Set small achievable goals. We all want huge results fast. But that just doesn't happen for most people. If you are like me, setting small goals that are in reach you will get better results. I have gone gung ho and many things, and after a week or two it fizzles out. I would much rather take my time and see continuous results. It is so much more rewarding!!

I hope you find these helpful and useful and by all means, if you have any tips that you would like to share, please please do!!

I have asked a friend of mine who does quite a bit of healthy vegan cooking to give me some of her recipes. I will share those when I can.

Thanks for tuning in lovelies!! Until next time...

Misty
xo

Thursday, June 9, 2011

1 donut, 2 donut, 3 donut...NONE!

Cough cough sniffle sniffle. I am still under the weather however feeling better today then yesterday. I came down with a nasty cold and cough a few days ago. My mom was here visiting me for a few days over the weekend and go figure, the day she leaves I get sick. And I'm not ashamed to admit, I asked her to come back and take care of me! You guys know what I'm talkin about. Moms just know how take make the sniffles better. She didn't come back mind you....no really I'm fine, the tears dried up last night.
With having this cold I haven't had much of an appetite which could be a good thing but at the same time I know I'm not getting enough nourishment. I was a little hungry today so I did alright with eating proper meals.

Now here comes the dilemma. Since feeling a bit better today, I thought about walking up to the Tim Hortons to grab a coffee, and no sooner did that thought come into my mind, so did the thought of getting a few donuts too. Before I go any further, let me just say that I didn't. Here is where the difficulty of being a food addict comes into play. When my mind gets wrapped around something like food there are times where it is hard to let it go. I have used food as my drug of choice for many years and its not something that I can easily get past. Its going to be hard, there will always be hurdles infront of me. instead of going to booze or drugs, I just always turned to food. I actually just read an article not too long ago that said there was a study being conducted which stated that foods high in fats, sugars and carbs can potentially give you the same response in the brain that we see from drugs like cocaine. This makes total sense to me because I can see how this can lead its way into compulsive over-eating. You need to keep eating to try to reach that ultimate 'high' again. Scary I know and some of you may totally disagree with this. That's fine, I just ask that you keep an open mind. The way many of us deal with stresses are different, much like the way we each deal with addictions are different.

In normal circumstances, getting a coffee and a donut are not a bad thing. I'm not about to deprive myself completely of the things I want, but ensuring that I can maintain control is also important. As I sat on the bed, contemplating, I told myself to be real. Could I really only get one donut? Would I be satisfied with just one? And sadly, I knew the answer. I knew that I couldn't buy just one so the best thing for me to do was not go at all. If I went in there with a different mind set, then I would have been ok. But on this particular morning it wasn't an option for me.

I wonder, is this going to be something that I have to deal with for the rest of my life? I think so. I think that I will learn as I go and my choices will become easier as I go along, however, like an addict, I will always have temptations and my job is to fight them and learn that I can overcome them.
I know that I am by no means alone in this battle. There are so many who struggle the same struggles when it comes to food. We all just have to learn what we can do to jump over the food hurdle. I just wish that it wasn't a cupcake looking back at me when I jump over it!

Because I scared myself a little this morning, I though I had better get my ass on the treadmill. I haven't been on all week on account of being sick. I stepped on today but couldn't last even a minute on account of coughing and hacking. I do feel on the rotten side that I haven't worked out all week but I know that I have a valid reason. This just makes me look forward to when I can again.....WHOA...did I just say that? I think I did. I think I am excited to climb back on the beast and give him a what for! Fingers crossed I can get back to my routine in a few days.

I'm just 1.5 lbs away from hitting my 20 pound weight loss mark. Hopefully will hit that soon and I will be sure to let everyone know!! I'm always looking for tips and healthy snack options. If any of you know of any and would like to share, please do so. I will share some of mine next time too!

Thanks guys for tuning in!

Misty
xo

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Eating vegetarian can be so YUM-O!!!

Coming off of a great weekend with my mom, I thought I would take a few minutes and post a few YUM-O recipes that we had. My mom is a pescatarian like me but for different reasons. I was strictly vegetarian for over a year but have recently become pescatarian when I did that detox cleanse last month. My last doctors visit, she instructed me that I had no choice but to start eating meat again. I told her that I couldn't do that so she said that I had to at least start eating fish again. I wasn't getting no where near enough protein and I had to make revisions in my diet to compensate that. I read a book called Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer. It left such an impression on me that I gave up meat at that moment. As much as I hate the fact that I am eating fish again, at this point there isn't much I can do. But I am going to attempt the true vegetarian lifestyle again in the future. At the end of the day my health has to be more important.
For those who are either already vegetarian, on the verge of making the transition to it or are curious and might be swayed, I strongly recommend reading Eating Animals.

www.eatinganimals.com
Ok, a plug for vegetarians...check! YAY Vegetarians!!

Now on to a couple delish recipes!! Even if you are meat eaters you will love these!! I promise!!

Roasted Portebello Stacks - 2 servings
4 portobello mushrooms
1 roasted red pepper, sliced in strips
1 mini eggplant
1 small onion, sliced, you only need 1 slice for each mushroom
goat cheese
olive oil
thyme
salt and pepper, to taste
Clean and de-gill mushrooms. Cut out stem. Slice veggies. I like mine really thin but its up to you. Toss oil and thyme with veggies. Line on parchment paper. Roast 30 minutes, turning half way thru. Once roasted to your liking began stacking. First place a portobello on plate, then eggplant, onion, goat cheese and red peppers. Season with salt and pepper of you like.
Trust me, so yummy! My mouth is watering right now!

Spinach & Pea Salad
Lg container of baby spinach
1 pkg sugar snap peas
1 pkg frozen peas, cooked and cooled, about 1 cup, but more if you like
light ricotta cheese
mint, chopped, a few sprigs
1/2 c olive oil
1/4 c lemon juice
1 tbsp honey
1/2 tsp salt
Mix oil, lemon juice honey and salt together. Assemble rest of salad and pour dressing over top. Add a few dollops of ricotta cheese on top and serve.
Again, so tasty! Yup...mouth watering again!

Aside from my own personal beliefs about eating meat verses not, ensuring that you add as many veggies to your diet is so crucial to a healthy lifestyle.

I tip my hat to the chef. I know these recipes are pretty simple and straight forward but there is something about moms and when they cook it always tastes better. My mom is so great with finding new and mouthwatering recipes to try out.
She takes such good care of me! I'm lucky to have her support. We actually had a bonding moment a few weeks ago when I went down to the Falls to visit her for a mother daughter weekend. I have always prided myself on how open our relationship is but there were things that I was uncomfortable to tell her. My weight was the main one. Because of my utter shame in it, I didn't think that I could tell anyone. But after the last month or so and losing **17 lbs** now ( gained a few lbs back after the detox but lost those plus another one) I was feeling even more optimistic and a little more positive so we were chatting and I tearfully opened up and told her what my highest weight was. I of course broke down in tears and could feel a lump in my throat, and without skipping a beat she came over and took my hands and I told her. Baby steps. Telling someone how much you weight may not be a big deal for some people, but for others whose weight has controlled their lives for so many years it can be one of the hardest things to utter from your mouth. I am so thankful to have the love and support from her who gives me inspiration, unconditional love and never ending motivation along this my new journey. Love you lots Mama Bear!!

So, great food plus an awesome weekend equals a tired girl on a Sunday night!

Thanks for tuning in guys. Have a great rest of the weekend.

Misty
xo